What shall I say?

Blogs are a lot of work.

Life is a lot of work.

Well, in reality life is a lot of work, but blogs are not that much. The problem I’m having is that I live life and have all these ideas of “that would be an interesting thought to write about in my blog.” But, then I either don’t actually make the time to write about them, or after spending hours dumping thoughts into a google doc it just doesn't make sense nor seem as profound as I originally believed. On top of that, someone made a remark to me the other day referencing something I had said in a previous post. That made me realize that even if I don’t think anyone will see this because I don’t tell anyone about it, people can and will still find it.

That’s kind of scary.

It at least makes you think a lot more about what you say. What if someone thinks it’s stupid? What if someone (dare I say it) finds it offensive? (Although, honestly, I don’t plan on discussing any hot button topics here.) It’s rather intimidating. Do I want to put some thoughts or writings of mine online where they might stay until Jesus returns?

It’s rather ironic, honestly, that I plan to spend the next few years of my life learning how to make other people’s things last forever and I’m afraid of my own thoughts being around for a bit for others to read. Maybe it’s because I can distance myself from my own artwork. I’ve only had a few really emotionally driven pieces over the years, most are focused on improving a skill. On the other hand, I cannot distance myself from my own thoughts.

Perhaps I am taking myself too seriously. Perhaps I should just have fun journaling some thoughts that I can come back to in a few decades and laugh at. I think that is what I’ll do. I’ll try to post a bit more this summer, not take it too seriously, and actually get the ball rolling on this blog.